90026 Los Angeles
Being there is like that desired longing to be present, now. It's when you look at a photograph of a quintessential landscape and think why can't I be there now? Instead of where I am now, in this situation, under these conditions. Are you there for me? I will always be there. I won't just say it in words, but I will physically be here and would be there for you in a second. I am watching tv and I am totally wrapped up in this world. Better yet, I'm 3 seasons in to a 5 season run of some popular yet cultish tv show on Netflix and I don't even know what reality is. I am sad when it ends and I'm not with these characters anymore. Now I have to go into the world and I dread even walking in to the restaurant of where my take-out order has been placed. I'm having coffee with a friend and a guy I've never met is writing me on tinder. I'm really good at typing and still making eye contact. Who is getting all of my attention? I'm on the phone while I'm driving and my navigation app is yelling in my ear while I'm trying to hear my whispering boyfriend in prison that has to speak softly because he has obtained a cell phone and his cell-mate is asleep. He says he's gonna go because who knows where I was for that 10 minute conversation. The Spice Girls have the song, 'Say you'll be there.' Do we always have to ask for our lovers presence? How many times have I asked my ex boyfriends if they could repeat what I just said? Somehow one could always repeat it but didn't actually process it until they heard themselves say it out loud. But I, first person, really will be there. I may say I'm on my way and will be there 20 minutes late, but I promise I meant well.
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