The Mind of an Artist
An artist is born with a particular kind of mind, a mind that thinks outside the box...not just some of the time - most of the time. They are not given to the occasional "ah-ha" that many people experience when their defensive armor accidentally falls off for a moment and they are able to experience something outside the "norm". They are given to constant "ah-ha's" and yet somehow try to focus on the here and now and think inside the box so that they can make enough money to survive in this physical reality.
Many artists barely survive and are true to their calling, giving in to their real identities and living on ideas solely. I felt a neurosis to "fit in" the herd and be "normal" and so pretended much of my younger life to be a "normal" person. I never felt normal and anything that I thought about or talked about was seen as "she has such an imagination, that one", as though that was a bad thing. So I tried to keep quiet and do all the stupid pet tricks and go along with what the herd was discussing. I felt more and more "different" as time went on and eventually could deny who I was no longer. I "came out of the closet as an artist", so to speak.
I may still appear normal (I don't know - do I?) these days but I am admitting to my true identity as an artist and embracing it now. Though you may not see me standing outside in the war protest groups or spending time with activists groups (they can be herd-like too), you will see my own signature on expressing my futuristic, spiritual, mind-bending ideas in my artwork, which I exhibit only in the most creative and holistic venues - venues without pretension - that are not making breaking news by mimicking some idol or fleeting idea of the "herd".