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C for effort - the C train.
And now, the news you've been waiting for! (Incidentally, on my "combined" blog this is my 100th post. Woo!)  Ok. I admit it fully. I suck. And furthermore I have no idea why I did this to myself. It's fairly excruciating to try to put together a post about a train ride three weeks after the fact. Add in the truths that I took 250 photos on this journey and that it's 2 in the morning, and you get one hell of an interesting combo. But really, it's high time that this blog got blogged. I'm using my photos as a guide, so color along with me as I rebuild the journey that happened oh so long ago now... Ok, so it was just on July 27th. But still.  I was once again joined by my fearless fiance. We decided it would be best to hop on the M60 bus to get into town, which conveniently drags us all the way across 125th Street. From there it's really barely a jump up to 168th: the true start of our C train journey.  Once we reached 168th of course we explored a little. Of all the things we saw, and we did see many things, this may have been my favorite - a cotton candy man floating up Broadway. Jonathan used to live in this neighborhood, so we took a jaunt up to the old apartment. It's an odd mix of real New York edges and Columbia newness. Despite any shows of wealth, though, there was a very visible homeless population.  In fact, the first thing we saw upon getting off of the train at 168th was two (probably) homeless men sleeping on benches. I hope they can get some undisturbed rest. The other disconcerting thing we noticed was that these were by far the shabbiest trains we've ever ridden. They're the same style as some that run on the W and other lines sometimes, but the condition - the speakers don't work, the wheels make ungodly loud noises, the paint is chipping off of the seats like nobody's business, and so on. The C train gets no love. Why is that?   At 110th Street Cathedral Parkway, there's a huge tile mosaic like we see so often. It's interesting, and I'm sure it's meaningful, and I'm sure that one or several artists and artisans poured their hearts and souls into the thing. But the fact is, it's ugly. This is the part I like. Believe me when I tell you it's a small part.  The Installation at 81st Street - the Natural History Museum, don't you know - is called "For Want of a Nail...". I don't get this at all. Now, I know the reference. It's a little anecdote that goes something like this: For want of a nail they lost the shoe; for want of the shoe they lost the horse; for want of the horse they lost the message; for want of the message they lost the battle; for want of the battle they lost the war - all for the want of a horse shoe nail. It's, like, a really complicated way of saying that details matter. How that applies to this installation is what I don't get; it seems to be more of a tribute to evolution and the divergence of animal species, or the beauty and diversity of nature, or something. Whatever though; it's pretty.  Fishes! See, you don't need to go SCUBA diving in the Caribbean; you just need to come to New York City and hang out in subway stations.  I want one of these in my bathroom.  There were two (count them two) buskers in the 81st Street station. One was a fiddler doing Irish jigs - him I found entertaining because I'd just finished reading The Good Fairies of New York, and if you've read that then you know what I'm talking about. He was also engaging the crowd. Somehow I didn't think to pull out my tape recorder at that time. Dumb. And there was this guy, playing that Chinese instrument that they use in all the movies what's name I can't figure out! If you know, please tell me. Anyway, both of them were probably benefiting from the people people that didn't figure out that the B doesn't run on weekends. The C came, the C went, they were all still standing there...  Archaeopteryx! Right up there with Confucius ornis, I tell you. (Have I ever mentioned that I'm a giant fossil dork? Don't even get me started on Canadaspis perfecta...)  The 50th Street Station is interesting. It has this giant full wall etched granite mural by Matt Mullican; quite interesting stuff. Untitled. It seems to trace the development of the human species and then of society, moving from right to left. What's odd about the station is that though it is absolutely cavernous and only serves two trains, its transfers are quite lacking. Basically, if you're on the E and want to transfer to the C going Uptown, well, you can't. You have to go outside, cross 8th avenue, and re-enter (with another metrocard swipe). For a while I wondered if I was just an idiot and couldn't figure it out, but the dry-erase board in the token booth confirmed my suspicions. Seriously, the station is enormous. There's nowhere that there could have been some kind of crossover? Stop by; you'll see what I mean.  Sorry for the wholly inadequate photos of the install; it's hard to photograph. And I was hungry.  As I may have mentioned, Penn Station pains me. Mainly because this is what it used to look like, before they decided to tear it down. I believe 1963 was the year of the evil deed. I am of course not the only person upset by this; apparently when it happened it caused an "international outrage" and actually prompted the city to pay a lot more attention to preserving architectural landmarks. Below is what it looks like now.  Oh, yeah, that's the same. It's definitely not a grotesque piece of crap now or anything. They definitely didn't destroy an architectural marvel only to replace it with the most god awful mall in creation. No, that didn't happen at all. (OK, deep breath. Aaaannnnd focus. And we're back.) That said, there are some amazing installation pieces in the new Penn, mostly created by Andrew Leicester - a man who seems to share my (and the popular) view of what has happened in this space but unlike most had the chance to make a rather visible dent in the problem.    Thanks Mr. Leicester. Of course, with that place there's only so much you can do.  Granted, the new Penn does have this. It's not every day that you get to see a bear in a pink dress, now is it.  Which way to the nearest bank? Cuz this chick in the yellow, she's kinda freaking me out... Oh and in case you're wondering, no I'm not done posting pictures of 14th street. Not at all.  Somewhere around West 4th Street we encountered these hipster buskers. They weren't bad, but boy did they pick the wrong train. I think they were looking for the L.  We've got an eye on you! Or more like a hundred of them, all different. At Chambers, Big Brother (or maybe Big Mosaic) is watching. He's got the whole world, in his... subway station. Also at chambers street, along with all the eyes watching you, is this enormous globe mosaic - it's kind of awesome, and I wish they'd keep it cleaner. There is, of course, an eye in the center.  An interesting tidbit about the Utica Avenue station. Its mezzanine is rather cavernous, and in the 90's it was refurbished with those pretty mosaics designed by children and the twirly tile designs and all. But the reason it's so big up there is this: it was supposed to be two train stations, not one. The MTA had a project called the Second System that really died before it started because of the Great Depression. But a few of the stations did get a start, mainly the ones that overlapped with existing stations. This to my understanding is one of them; if we could lift away that wall directly ahead, the one with the pretty twirlyness, we would be looking at an abandoned platform - one that never had its tracks built. Does that make anyone else feel like trespassing? Or am I just some kind of hooligan?  We made it! Of course, we'd been there before.  Ahh, the proud opening of a station that these men will doubtless never enter again.  Waiting on the train... Euclid is known for its lavender tiling.  At least one sign believed that the Euclid station is in Queens... It isn't. But maybe it was once.  The neighborhood isn't what I'd call charming, but it has some interesting details. It reminds me of New Orleans a little - would so more if it had more trees.  At the local bodega in City Line? East New York? Cypress Hills? You decide - we met a sweet kitten who was more than willing to receive our attentions. At the same bodega, I lingered too long lamenting the lack of choices of diet beverages while anxious proprietors looked on wondering what the hell we were doing there, and a semi-crazy but fairly young black lady called me baby and asked me how much a particular 40oz cost. All in all, it was a good finish to the day.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 8/12
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Oh, how I languish.
Ok. So it's been a while since I've been on a train. And I still don't have the promised C train post up. Things have been complicated, what with being in New Orleans and everything. I am hoping, though, that now that I'm for real unemployed, I'll have a little time. There are no interviews scheduled yet, and I have my doubts that she'll get me booked every day next week. So the D train should happen without a problem - maybe even on Monday. It's a super long line and ends up in Coney Island, so I need a real whole day for it without a doubt.
So no, no train post for you yet. While I know it's no substitute, it's still fun: I've brought you these pictures of the New Orleans streetcars, which yes are up and running. Into each other, sometimes. But nevermind all that. Look at the pretty pictures.










Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 8/07
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The sadness of hyperextension.
No, I don't mean the knees-bending-backward kind. What I mean is this:
instead of a nice thick layer of peanut butter on two slices of texas
toast, my energies are more like a bit of melted butter that I'm trying
to spread on every single crumpet in the Russian Tea Room. In a
nutshell, I took on too much in July and it's come back to bite me in
the ass. Between complete exhaustion and the fact that the C train's
decided to go completely wonky this weekend, it has become evident that
I'll not be riding a train this week. That
being the unfortunate case, I thought I'd share a little tidbit that
wasn't included in my original B train post. In the interest of keeping
the posts (relatively) brief I have to pick and choose what goes in,
and it killed me to leave this part out...  See,
it turns out that within the 145th Street station, there's a police
station. This in and of itself isn't that odd. There are police
stations in several to many of the subway stations - I'm having trouble
finding a list of any kind, but what we can think of so far are Union
Square and Columbus Circle at least, for starters. And these aren't MTA
police, understand. These stations are sort of outposts for the New
York City PD, doubtless established to prevent the subways from
declining to the dangerous state they're so famous for having been in
around the 70's and 80's.  What
made this visit to the 1-4-5 unique was what was going on at the police
station at the time - an arrest, to be precise. We didn't get to see
why the three men were arrested. We seemed to be witnessing the tail
end of the process, the men being brought who knows where, handcuffed,
being led. One has to wonder what led to the arrest. Perhaps
they were involved in a robbery topside, and then tried to flee via
subway. Perhaps the robbery was in the subway itself. Or maybe they
were just plain old fare beaters who got spotted, with the new stricter
fining laws recently in place and station watchdogs more vigilante, and
they decided to mouth off or try to run when confronted -
unsuccessfully. Of course, the temptation to ask just what went on is one that must be pushed down, as doing so will
most likely gain you an offer to join the offenders for their little
trip downtown. Still, I managed to surreptitiously get some photos of
the departing group. Without names or faces, our imaginations will have
to fill in the stories. Let us hope that, if innocent, they were set
free quickly (and apologized to), and if guilty they will meet with a
punishment appropriate to the crime. Hey, a girl can dream.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/19
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Calming, steadily
Ok. So. It's amazing what a good night's sleep will do for a person.
After
not sleeping for the second night on Monday, I spent Tuesday a weepy
whiny mess. It was really pitiful. I'm useless, my life is going
nowhere, there's no good answer, same old crap bla bla bla. I shouldn't
be too mean to myself; things get hard and my chemistry was all effed
up. And anyway, it's not as if I didn't know that it was all pointless.
Today
I've regained my senses, in no small part due to the fact that I've had
something resembling a night's rest. As of now, the situation looks
like this: yes, my current job does not pay me enough to live on. About
half, actually. But at least it pays half, so the drain on my savings
isn't as dramatic as it would be if I were totally unemployed or even
just less employed. It's a job that I give as much or as little to as I
feel like in a given day... for the most part, at least. And now that I
have a new computer with internet access, things should be a little
nicer. The effect of having this job is that my time is stretched - my
time, that is, to find the right job.
The right job? What the
hell is that? Ah, the eternal question. It's the one that strikes the
right balance. The one that both pays me enough to live on plus a
smidge, but also doesn't take so much out of me that I leave it each
evening feeling dead inside.
How do I find it? Aw christ, I have
no idea. Look, I guess. Ask friends. Apply. Spread around my resume.
Yesterday I applied for jobs with the Freelancers Union and Meetup.com.
Either one would be pretty cool, I think, especially FU since it's a
non-profit and all. The location ain't great for me (Brooklyn Heights),
but I could use the commute time for subway study, so it'd work out.
Here's hoping they even notice my email amongst the 500 I'm sure
they've already received from Criagslist.
So, I've got three
months, maybe four if I'm careful or get a little something from the
parents. I just have to be diligent and not be so dragged down by the
application process. It feels so much like being ignored or outright
rejected, but I have to get over that. When you put up a post for a job
one evening, and come back the next morning to 200 emails in your
inbox, you're not gonna open all of them. It's luck of the draw. I can
only up my chances by applying more, as grueling as that may be.
I'm
just standing on the shore, throwing pebbles into a vast sea. One day a
miracle will occur and a mermaid with shimmering gold and green scales
will surface, and smile, and toss my pebble back to me. She'll have
tied a note to it: "Administrative assistant for a nonprofit graphic
design firm, will train in software, 40K plus full benefits. Start
Monday?" Or even, "Legal assistant at non-reprehensible lawfirm, 36K
plus benefits, start in a month?" Until then, I'll just try to count
the concentric circles that radiate as the pebbles break the surface of
the water.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/16
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Will somebody give me a thousand bucks so that I can go to sleep?
It's 2:30 am. I'm wide awake. I'm obsessing about money: not having
enough of it, spending too much of it, how to earn more of it, et
cetera.
I
know it's ridiculous to keep my studio, but the thought of giving it up
is, in my mind, akin to tearing my soul out of my body and tossing it
out the window. Suffice it to say, I'm trying to avoid that. But man,
that's one expensive soul. So I'm toying with the idea of sharing. But
then someone else would be in there. Their stuff would be in there. And worst of all, they could be in there when I wasn't in there, and they might touch my stuff. I don't do very well with this concept. So I don't know.
I'm
contemplating asking my mom for some money. What price handout? Guilt?
Superiority? Simply the knowledge that they'd know that my little
gamble failed and I had to come running to them? It's not as if it's
their own money anyway, not as if they worked for it. But I can't
decide if that makes asking for some of it worse or better.
I'm
considering printing out some old stories in booklet format and trying
to sell them in the subway, two dollars a pop. I know for a fact that I
should stop being so lazy with my etsy posts. I have merch laying all
over the place that I still don't have up; that's just stupid. I never
have followed through will my old plan of going 'round to the
bookstores to see if they'll sell my wares, consignment based or
otherwise. Why is it that when it comes to the potentially money-making
parts of my endeavors, I get wishy-washy? I'll paint all the live long
day, but then when it comes to asking someone for a show, I'm jelly.
Classic fear of success? Perhaps. Or maybe creation just interests me
infinitely more than sales does.
Of course I'm thinking about
the old office, about whether they'd take me back. And I'm pretty sure
the answer's yes. They have several people leaving in August for law
school. All I can think is jesus, talk about admitting defeat. But no,
it's so much more than that. I left there because it was eating me
alive. I was unbelievably unhappy there for longer than should have
been permitted. Going back would be an enormous mistake; it's almost a
guarantee.
I'm just miserable. I'm wound up and anxious, and I
want to wake Jonathan but it's just wrong to; he needs to sleep and
there's nothing he can tell me that's going to make this any different.
He's just someone to whine at; I'll only get myself even more worked up
doing it and upset him in the process. Not what I'd call productive.
This
is just stupid. Why this? Why now? Nothing's different than it was last
week. This isn't helping me at all. I'm not broke yet. I've got two
more months in me at the very least, if not more. All I'm doing right
now is making sure that I'll be sick to my stomach all day tomorrow.
But for some reason I can't get myself to stop; it's a well cultivated
masochistic streak with an intense momentum once it gets itself going.
At least I get to see my psychotherapist tomorrow. She might not have budgetary answers for me, but she has to listen to me whine: I pay her in cold, hard cash.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/15
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Receptionist Doldrum DumDum
Today at the office, it was a full page day. As in, the legal pad
(legal size) that I write phone notes on was completely filled. I have
a method, see; first I write notes on the pad. Then I either answer the
caller's questions myself, transfer the call to the appropriate party
(confidently stating who the hell the caller is since I made notes), or
"take a message", meaning that once I hang up my notes will be
translated into humanspeak and written into the pad of perforated pink
and blue rectangles backed with carbon paper. For some reason, I'm
often accused of being methodical.
Lately
I've only been filling a half sheet - don't know what got into them
today. Motivated on Monday? Who the hell ever heard of that? Monday's
the day we all sit on our asses pretending we're not at office jobs we
hate; don't these putzes know this? I'm used to the slew of calls after
3pm on Friday, everyone in the tri-state area remembering, "Damnit! I
was supposed to take care of that before the weekend!" and then calling
me up like I've done them wrong by not divining their needs beforehand.
Maybe this is a next-week-I-go-on-vacation version of that? Who knows.
Of
course, today I was computerless - the office version of a quadriplegic
at the gym. My poor little PC... in computer years, I'd guess he's
around a hundred. Well come last Monday, the first day of our office
manager's weeklong absence (of course), he threw in the towel. First I
got the fuzzy flickering screen of incomprehensible code. Restart:
blackness. Restart: beeping, in threes. We went on like this all last
week, me trying to make the computer start every morning, and then
sadly retreating to said office manager's desk in the scary scary back
part of the office, far from my safe and comfortable isolated hole up
front.
This morning I tried it again, with no other box to fall
back on, and to my enormous shock it started up! I was a little sad -
on Friday my attorney had said they'd buy me a new computer, and that's
always exciting. But it would be nice to be back in my hole, able to do
my work and not constantly bother people for things I should be able to
do myself. Well, I got so far as the desktop... after it had been
frozen for twenty minutes, and was not responding to ctrl+alt+del, I
restarted: blackness. Again, and: beeping. Again: more beeping. Again:
fuzzy flickering screen of incomprehensible code. Well then. Back to
square one, aren't we.
* * * * * * * * * *
Questions are
boiling over in my mind, getting hotter and hotter, spilling right out
onto the stove. Why am I working full time if I'm not making enough to
live on? No vacation, no sick days, no health insurance? I know my
reasons, my answers. That any other job would take more time, would
take more of me. Yes, but it would also provide more comfort, more stability. But at what cost? Look at the cost you're paying now. Look at your savings account, and your calculations. Money isn't everything. No, not until you don't have any. I still have some. So... talk to you in September? That is, IF everything works out like
you think it will right now. THAT happens pretty often, doesn't it? Aw, shut up. Who asked you anyway?
Come September-ish, I have a feeling I'll be looking for job number four of the year two thousand and eight.
Man, my taxes this year are gonna be a nightmare.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/14
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Bastian Brings Boyfriend, Braves Brownstones and Brighton
 Ah,
the best laid plans... usually aren't that well planned after all, are
they? Foolish little me, there I was thinking that I'd just hop that
old B train on a leisurely Sunday. But oh no no no says B, it shan't be
so. See, the B doesn't run on weekends. Or late nights, for that
matter. The extra tricky part was that, before heading out, we weren't
sure when the train would stop running. But I said, meh. It's not as if
there won't be any trains at all, now is it? Umm... hope not?
Thus, a weeknight journey for we adventurers. I knew that my darling Jonathan would join me if only for safety's sake - since I'd be out till at least 11
or so, in unknown neighborhoods and all. But Friday is his evening to
decompress from the week, so I also knew he wouldn't really want to spend that time riding the subway for five or six hours. As such, I
attempted to recruit super-awesome former co-worker Kelly M. to be my
subway support system for the evening.
She
was shockingly receptive to the idea - I don't know how many of my
friends are actually that willing to ride the subway with me for hours
on end as I obsessively snap photos and talk into a tape recorder like
a crazy person. But hey, she's a philosopher, so I guess she could see
the merit. Or something. I dunno. I think it's fun, and I was hoping
she would too. It seemed like a go... until she found out about the
Brazilian Girls show. Oh well, easy come, easy go I guess.
And so, back to my rock, Mr. J.B. He wasn't gonna let me not go, and he sure as hell wasn't gonna let me go alone. So, feeling
guilty about stealing his Friday night downtime, I devised this plan:
that we would only get out at stops that couldn't be explored via other
lines. The vast majority of B stops are also stops on the C, Q, D, V,
or F lines - plenty of opportunities to get those shots I think. And
except for the V, those lines run on weekends.
Plans
thus coerced and truncated, we set off tonight. Since I got off of work
at 5 and he not until almost 6, it was practically 7pm before we made
it to the 7th Avenue stop at 53rd street where I'd determined it would
be most convenient to pick up the old IND 6th Avenue line. A touch of
irony there, perhaps? Oh well. As
for the 53rd street station, it's not what you'd call exciting. It's
where I catch the E sometimes, if I'm heading from the Columbus Circle
area to my studio on Long Island City. It's one of those confusing
stations where all the uptown trains are on one platform (downstairs)
and all the downtown trains are on the other (upstairs), so that both
trains on one platform come from the same direction. For me, at least,
this always means I don't know which direction the train will come
from. Somehow everyone else does, though, so I just look in the
direction they're looking and assume that's where the train will be
coming from. I suppose there are bigger problems in life, but still, it
irks me.
Wanting
to hit Sugar Hill before dark (unknown territory, you know, and better
pictures) we first headed north. On the way we ran into some
breakdancers weary from their long day in the sun. We noticed the kid
carrying a five foot roll of linoleum, and at first we thought he was
just helping his mom remodel the kitchen. But then we spotted his very
similarly dressed cousin and quickly figured it out. If you haven't
witnessed many breakdancing troupes, you may not know that one of the
gimmicks is that they always, have, well, "the
Puerto Rican". He'll be pointed out during the show, as in, "but you
don't have to watch out for the _______ guys (whatever the speaker is
fills in the blank), you gotta watch out for THE PUERTO RICANS!" as
"the Puerto Rican" points to himself proudly and smiles slyly.
Sometimes "the Puerto Rican" is a girl, which is always fun. It's just
part of the shtick, like the trick where they jump over 8 people. Well,
we found him - from one troupe anyway, one that wears red shorts - and
damn was he tired. You can't tell in this particular photo, sadly, but
his stylish sunglasses sport a motif of the P.R. flag.
Anyway,
the express lived up to its name, and despite making local stops along
Central Park we were up to 145th street in no time. The neighborhood we
were popped into was kind of surprisingly charming. Why surprisingly? I
don't know exactly. Probably because I know the area just 20 blocks
south so well, and it's quite different and not what I would call
charming in any way really. But then, in cities like New York, "just"
and "20 blocks" don't really belong in the same sentence. Homogeny is
for suburbs.
Sugar
Hill does indeed have a gentle rolling hilliness to it. It also has
rows of the most beautiful brownstones you ever did see, with that
wonderful curved front the architectural name of which I do not know.
Sadly, as in its cousin neighborhoods to the south and west, the area
reeks of impending (and some ongoing) gentrification. Nevertheless, the
streets were running over with children at play, parents shopping for
groceries, grandmothers out for an evening stroll in the twilight sun -
all people that seemed to have lived in the neighborhood for decades,
generations. Within these groups many races were represented, very few
of them of European descent. Yes, up there in Sugar Hill me and my man
stuck out like sore thumbs. Didn't seem to bother anybody any though;
they just went on with their evenings, and we were glad of it.
Back
on the train, and due to previously stated plan of swift travel I was
relegated to (trying to) take pictures from within its confines. This
was of course made much more difficult by the fact that it was still
more or less rush hour - a fact which was indeed confirmed by the B
still being in operation, actually. Basically, people kept getting in
the way of my shots. The upside of this was that I got some good shots
of, well, people. It being Friday night, after a long hard week,
(because isn't every week a long hard week?) many of those people were
quite tired.
We traversed the Manhattan bridge and saw one of the damn waterfalls that everyone's been making so much noise about - and sorry, but it's
ugly. It's water falling off of scaffolding, and it cost an obscene
amount of money - 15 million bucks obscene, that is. Art is great, I'm
all for it, but all for one art project? And an ugly one at that?
Supposedly he used scaffolding to mirror the ever-changing face of the
city - in other words the constant construction that drives us all
crazy. Why would we want to look at more scaffolding? I wonder what 15 mil could do for the NYC public school
system. Or to run down parks in, say, Bed Stuy. Nice effort I suppose,
but no dice.
I
attempted to take pictures from the train... see, I love my camera, and
in a lot of ways for many purposes it's an excellent camera. But
unfortunately speed of focus, shutter speed, and rapid-fire shooting
are not among its strengths. In other words, I got a bunch of blurry
blotches. I also kept managing to only get shots of support beams - I'd
say about a 20% chance there but more like 90% of my pics. Maybe I
should play the lotto tonight - or maybe I'll just get struck by
lightning.
Shortly
into Brooklyn we reached our first get-off-stop - DeKalb Avenue. My 50¢
MTA Art In Transit guidebook had tipped me off to an installation here.
It was kind of hard to find, and kind of odd when we found it. A bit
Picassoesque, with its random geometric forms and musical instrument
parts. And inexplicably the king (of clubs) and queen (of hearts
perhaps) flanking to the left and right (respectively). Whatever floats
your boat there, Stephen Johnson. (Apparently there's a much larger
installation in another part of the station - I'll find it when I'm
riding one of the other three trains that goes there, I suppose. I also
suppose we didn't really need to get out there this trip, but oh well.)
Our
next stop was the next stop, Atlantic Avenue. This proved to be quite
interesting, though not for the reasons we'd hoped. It's actually a
massive hub, and I must have been exhausted (or smoking rock) or
something when I decided that it was one of the places we needed to
step into on this ride. It served a function though - mainly in that it
has functioning and unlocked men's and women's bathrooms. Of these facilities, I was in great need.
I can't say that it was a pleasant experience, nor one that provided all necessities, if you know what I mean. And there were some interesting,
um, remnants crammed into various corners. It was however not nearly as
bad as it could have been, considering.
The
artwork at the station was disappointing; granted, it's massive, but
all it is is these swoops of gray granite throughout the station. It
apparently took several collaborators too, I suppose due to its scale.
It does add a certain je ne sait quois to the station overall, but I
don't know that I'd call it "art", any more than I'd call all the fancy
buildings in midtown "art". Of course, some of them I would... but I
digress.
Downstairs on the actual B / Q platform there was some
old BMT signage - once you're in Brooklyn, you're riding on the old BMT
Brighton Beach line. Trying to take a picture of one of these signs, I
ended up standing rather close to the platform edge. But not close
enough to warrant what happened next.
The Q train entering the
station wasn't honking or slowing down, mainly because I wasn't
encroaching upon its track space in the least. Jonathan, who's rather
nervous about train platform boundaries, wasn't perturbed in the least
by my positioning. Despite this an angry young man felt it necessary to
shout, "move, you dumb bitch!" at me from about 30 feet down the
platform. Some people just have too much hostility in them I guess.

I took the picture from a different angle.
From
there it was just a zip straight shot to the end for us. Good thing,
too, as my camera battery was flashing red at me due to its perilously
low charge. And thankfully, sensibly, this line has only one end (unlike the A train).
For a while we were in a channel that was sort of still underground but
exposed to sky - it was very cool, I thought - and then ended up fully
above ground. All the lines seem to, once you get far enough out. And
then, rather quickly again due to the express-ness, we were at Brighton
Beach. Pulling into the station, the conductor made it sparklingly
clear that that particular train was done for the evening and in fact
for the week, it being Friday. That it was, in fact, headed "for
storage". Well OK then, I guess we wouldn't be riding that one back
into town. We were planning to wander for a minute anyway.
The
Manhattan-bound platform has some art, sculpture that's some kind of
business people morphing into dolphins type idea. It's kinda cool. I
managed to get some pictures - red light still flashing away on my
camera's screen, but it showed me a little mercy. Since Jonathan wanted
(and deserved, by this point) a cigarette, and since it's silly to go
all that way and then not hit the street, we dismounted.
And quickly realized that we've actually been there before. When we went to the Mermaid Parade this year we wandered far, far down the boardwalk and dined in Brighton
Beach, at one of the local Russian establishments (Potatoes and pickled
mushrooms, anyone? No really, the food was excellent. We're big fans of
potatoes and pickled mushrooms. I'm eating pickled mushrooms right now,
but they're Polish.). Coming back we were actually cold, so we traveled
streets as opposed to the waterfront. I'd suspected this synchronicity
whilst perusing the map, but then I'd thought, no, we didn't walk that far did we? But yep, we did.
Brighton
Beach is referred to as "Little Russia by the Sea", and they ain't
kiddin'. Neither am I, for that matter - it's not just something people
say or something I made up; it's on banners that are hung in the street
and everything. (Please excuse the blurry picture; this is exactly the
moment when my camera finally died so I didn't get a second go at it.
It's a frustrating situation; on these trips I take a lot of pictures -
I only post a precious few of them here, but for example on this trip I
took 160 before the battery went kaput. I really need a backup battery,
and if I have that possibly a memory card as well.) The high Russian
population concentration, paired with the juxtaposition of the Coney
Island neighborhoods, makes this a unique area indeed. Though with its
elevated subways and multiculturalism, it actually kind of feels like
home - we live in Astoria, after all. Just wait till we get to Ditmars
and you'll see what I mean.
We didn't spend long on the ground;
I was still hoping to ride the B back into town. Well, we'd missed that
boat (train). It was simply too late. B's were pulling in at the
Brooklyn bound platform, and then roaming off into the night, never to
round around to our side and bring us into Manhattan once again. So it
goes. This left us waiting for the Q train.
While we waited, we
heard something. And then we smelled something (we were downwind). And
then finally we saw something - and that something was fireworks. They
were coming from the direction of Coney Island, unsurprisingly, and
they were exquisite. We walked to the far back end of the platform for
the best view (though slightly obstructed by buildings) and stood
there, holding hands, basking in our B train accomplishment and
witnessing the pyrotechnic display that we did not get to see last
weekend.
Googling it later, this is what I found on the awesome Coney Island Website:
Fireworks on the Beach Astroland
and Deno's Wonder Wheel Park sponsor fireworks at 9:30 every Friday
night during the season. Fireworks generally start the last weekend in
June and conclude the Friday before Labor Day. For specific questions
about the fireworks, please contact Astroland (718-265-2100) or Deno's
(718-449-8836) directly.
Awesome right? And to think,
this is supposed to be Astroland's last season if Thor Industries has
its way. Check out the website to know what the hell I'm talking about.
And
so, thus concluded our B train travels. I was disappointed that we
didn't get to ride the B back in as well, but so it goes. We fulfilled
the goal of riding end to end, and that's what counts. It's weekdays
only, and early at that, and like a big dumb dolt I waited until
becoming employed full time to start this project. So at this point in
some instances I have to take what I can get.
And
the B train? For now, the B train sleeps. A rest for you, so that
Monday morning you can appear orange-eyed and bushey-tailed for weary
commuters on their way to dreaded offices. Sleep tight, little B.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/12
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Pieces.
Tonight, waiting on the W train at 23rd street, I heard one of those
announcements over the crackly overhead speakers - the kind that seems
that it must be going to every station because it has nothing to do
with the one you're sitting in. This indictment happened to pertain to
the A train, an entity with which I am now peculiarly familiar.
The
announcement - where do those come from anyway? I really must find out
- told us that, due to 'debris on the tracks', the A train would not be
running to either Far Rockaway or to Rockaway Park. Seems that two of Ghidorah's heads had been
temporarily truncated - and by what, trash? That for alternate service,
riders should take the Ozone Park bound A, and then transfer at Rockaway Boulevard for bus service (the Q 27, I believe, though I
could easily be mistaken about that. The buses are a completely other
labyrinth.).
And I thought, damn, that's messed up. Because I've
been there; I know how far out it is. How after a long day of working
in the city, the last thing you want to do is wait on an overcrowded
bus which will undoubtedly move at half or a third the speed of the
train that you normally take. And what about the people trying to get
out of the Rockaways to come in to their night jobs?
And then I
thought, soon, or soon enough, I'll have a context for all of these
announcements. An interesting concept: subway stop omniscience.
* * * * * * * * * *
And
last night? Was a trial. Shades of gray, a concept repeating over and
over in my mind. Resolutions? Communications? Maybe, some, a little. At
least we were happier by the time we went to sleep. I still had the
dreams though, where his is him but not him. Doing and saying terrible
things to me, being awfully mean, disappearing, moving out. But
fortunately in these dreams the entity that looks like him doesn't act
or talk like him. More like some evil twin that I'm afraid will one day
surface, but of whom I've never actually seen a trace in waking life.
A better day at work today at least. No want for tears, no dragging of clock. And tomorrow is Friday.
* * * * * * * * * *
A
bit of sadness: I lost my would-be partner for tomorrow night's train
journey. I'm terribly disappointed, but these things happen, and
hopefully she'll join me on another trip. Trouble being mainly that I
really shouldn't go alone (distracted girl by herself carrying
semi-expensive-looking camera into the nighttime hours on the farthest
reaches of the subway... hmmm...).
Which means that I have to
drag my man along. Not that he's not interested in the project, just
that there's other things he'd rather do with a Friday night. Like sit
in front of his computer and ignore the rest of the world so as to
recover from his work week. But being the incredibly supportive partner
that he is at his core, he won't hear of me postponing, and being
protective of me he won't hear of me going alone. So we're going, but
only stopping at art stations that can't be hit during other lines -
basically Atlantic and DeKalb in Brooklyn. It's a decent compromise,
especially for one of the lines that must be done on a weeknight.
* * * * * * * * * *
The
freezer at the Key Foods by our house where they keep all my good ice
cream (you know - the Tofutti, the Sharon's sorbet, et cetera) is
busted... again. So I decided I'd go ahead and finally try the Haagen
Daaz Coconut Sorbet - I usually go for the Sharon's because it's really
good and has a much lower sugar quantity. Well just FYI, the Haagen
Daaz sucks ass compared to the Sharon's. I discerned that it was vegan
at the store, but after tasting it I realized that they make it with
water and "coconut concentrate" rather than with real coconut and
coconut milk. No accounting for taste, I guess.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/10
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Disconcerted, maybe that's it.
Last night, I stop on my walk home to look at a graveyard. I try to
read inscriptions but few characters are legible. Closed one hundred
and sixty years ago, the tombstones are worn soft and toppled. A flash
of light catches my eye, then another, and then more: it is twilight,
and the space now walled by buildings is filled with fireflies. Perhaps
tapping out the Morse code of the dead.
Later,
I am sad. Jonathan is again out of sorts; we will not be spending time
together, as I had hoped. My Wednesday meeting is canceled. I think
that maybe this will give me more time with him, but then considering
how things have been, think otherwise. What is time with someone who
isn't there? I try to talk to him; he has no replies. I tell him that
sometimes I feel like we shouldn't get married, because of these nights
mostly. Again I am met with silence. I spend the evening feeling as if
the meaning is being drained from my hectic life, leaving behind only
obligations. Sleep comes fitfully, tossing and calling out for an hour
or more before the darkness can bring peace.
Today I am sad
still. In the morning my stomach will not be calm and I want to cry, to
sob. But of course I am at work, the unintended position, so I cannot.
Perhaps if I were up front, in my private world - but no, my computer
there is broken, so I'm in the back at the secretary's desk. In the
middle of it all. Exposed.
I'm cheered momentarily when the
hard-nosed blowhard male attorney of the office decides to order
chinese food for us. My vegetable and bean curd soup comes without any
bean curd, but at least there's food and at least it's free. Afternoon
brings only drudgery: request medical records for these 45 clients, oh
would you please? Not so bad I suppose; I only had to fill out
authorizations for 30 of them.
And then at 5pm I am released,
and somehow I don't feel any better at all. Of the list of things that
may be upsetting me, "job" is crossed off. I am at my studio now; I
have yet to face home, to face him. Any number of things could happen
when I get there, from good to bad with an infinite gray scale in
between. I sit here, stalling, in fear of the darker end.
Posted by Melissa Bastian
on 7/09
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